My Loves and Losses

i came out to myself and the world when i was 18. in the 17 years between then and now i have had 4 major relationships. 3 were men and one was a woman, yes i know lost my gold star gay status lol. so my first relationship was a guy in the seminary which did not last all that long.  the reason it is a major relationship is it was my first. he brought me into the world of sex and i must say i loved it. the next major relationship is technically the second, third and fifth. yeah i went with him 3 times with either someone else or significant time in between. he is a good person the relationships were always messed up though. then there was the girl. i feel victim to the "if you pray hard enough it will go away" thing. yeah my catholicism reared its ugly head  and i thought, ok i can beat this. well after some time we started having guys in bed with us then i turned to pros in secret and well needless to say i'm gay no doubt about it. btw, i am still a technical straight virgin, i never had actual sex with her, tried never worked. i would lose my erection before anything could happen, like i said i'm so gay. then there was the guy that devastated me. we were together for a very long time, years and one day without saying a word he left. i was crushed and not real good for a couple months, oh and btw this was earlier this year.

 by the way i will be telling these stories with more detail at some later time, any specific questions just ask.

now my baby has come into my life. omg he is incredible, sexy, smart, cute, clever, a chaser (chubby lover lol) and talented. my francis is just the most amazing guy anyone could want to know. oh did i mention he is incredibly romantic as well? he so is. well more on him later.

so this is my love life in a nut shell. not very exciting i know but such is life, lol. well i'll gab on more later, who knows what about but it will be interesting im sure.